Immortal Water

  Immortal

  Water

  Essential Prose Series 145

  Guernica Editions Inc. acknowledges the support of the Canada Council for the Arts and the Ontario Arts Council. The Ontario Arts Council is an agency of the Government of Ontario.

  We acknowledge the financial support of the Government of Canada.

  Immortal

  Water

  Brian Van Norman

  Copyright © 2018, Brian Van Norman and Guernica Editions Inc.

  All rights reserved. The use of any part of this publication, reproduced, transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise stored in a retrieval system, without the prior consent of the publisher is an infringement of the copyright law.

  Michael Mirolla, editor

  Interior and cover design: David Moratto

  Guernica Editions Inc.

  1569 Heritage Way, Oakville, (ON), Canada L6M 2Z7

  2250 Military Road, Tonawanda, N.Y. 14150-6000 U.S.A.

  www.guernicaeditions.com

  Distributors:

  University of Toronto Press Distribution,

  5201 Dufferin Street, Toronto (ON), Canada M3H 5T8

  Gazelle Book Services, White Cross Mills

  High Town, Lancaster LA1 4XS U.K.

  First edition.

  Printed in Canada.

  Legal Deposit — First Quarter

  Library of Congress Catalog Card Number: 2017955487

  Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

  Van Norman, Brian, author

  Immortal water / Brian Van Norman. -- First edition.

  (Essential prose series ; 145)

  Issued in print and electronic formats.

  ISBN 978-1-77183-243-4 (softcover).--ISBN 978-1-77183-244-1

  (EPUB).--ISBN 978-1-77183-245-8 (Kindle)

  I. Title. II. Series: Essential prose series ; 145

  PS8643.A555I46 2018C813’.6C2017-906458-4C2017-906459-2

  For Susan

  1

  Your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions.

  —JOEL 2:28

  Spring — The Past

  It is a hard thing to grow old. It is not easy as one’s limbs grow stiffer, each function less exact, when each thought is more memory than hope. Yet so go the days that are the ghosts of what was, with the dull recollection of a change that came, and we were suddenly no longer young.

  The old do not view the world from a height, softened by mellow sunset, bathed in streams of prophetic light. That is for the dead perhaps; away from the prison of a gnarled body and aged mind, freed from the narrow sickbed and the awful pangs for the past. For that is the worst of it — remembrance — of sinews that furled like waves in a storm, that muscled through the day’s toil and barged like a bull through tavern doors; of legs that were fearless of the long travel and loins that were fearless of night; of hands that grasped what the eyes desired, of eyes that were clear and bloodless and peered bravely into the passionate distance. Our ignorance was our comfort.

  Immortality, or its illusion, is the greatest gift of youth.

  These were the thoughts of Juan Ponce de Leon as he wrote them in his private journal. His calloused hands were accustomed to the toil: practiced from writing ships’ logs, colonial reports, military commands — the bureaucratia of governing. Yet their thick fingers threatened to strangle the quill as it dipped from ink pot to parchment. He had never liked writing, finding it drudgery. Still, he’d discovered himself more often these days seeking solace in the measure of words; making some sense of this quixotic voyage upon which he was now embarked as its captain-general, and chief dreamer.

  For an instant he glanced up from his chronicle through the leaded mullions of the ship cabin’s transom. Outside he glimpsed birds in flight, a flock of gulls flashing white against a hammered grey sky. They moved west, the birds; flying so quickly. If only his ship could find some air and race after them with the speed of their flight. Then he might reach his dream in time; just, in time. It would all be so simple then.

  He felt a sensation of apprehension. With his advancing age he knew this voyage must find success or he would be reduced to nothing; a mere old man unheard and undone. And he, who had once held so much power, would have only the spectre of that power to haunt him for what remained of his life.

  His thoughts delved briefly into the past. They settled on that bitter day of the trial at Santo Domingo, when his powers had been stolen from him, when he had been humiliated. It was that day which had birthed this voyage, those motives which drove him now. They would only resolve themselves when he had accomplished his vision. There was urgency in the scratch of his quill as he put it to parchment recording his past. At the moment it was all he could do.

  The years passed more quickly as we grew used to them. Yet we were too busy to notice. The wine warmed in our mouths and began to leave a stale taste, for we were changed: still strong, still ferocious ... but seasoned. We travelled then the tracks to our dreams. And other roads, smoother, enticed us along their elusive paths. The highwayman of dreams is necessity, however, and most of us fell prey to him. There was wood to be cut and water to be drawn and a man must somehow make his living. The settled life is the hardest of all: knowing you’ve stopped by the roadside, knowing your journey is done. Still, even among old men there are dreamers.

  And that is why I followed Columbus.

  He was a dreamer, yet his feet were solidly on the road. Each step was measured, each league planned. Even when his dream was ridiculed, when he was called a fraud; even when we lesser men who had followed him were near to mutiny when the food had run out and the water was brackish and scurvy gnawed at our mouths and his road seemed empty and endless; still, he was sure.

  The sea, he said, is the road to the new. The sea is not endless. The sea must have shores. And so he carefully crafted his dream. From the tomes of Galileo he sought knowledge. From the tales of Galician fishermen he learned the way. Even from the earth’s curve he determined the distance. And then he made others believe in his dream and hauled us up from our cozy ditches and took us again to the travel.

  It had taken the remains of his treasury to outfit this voyage and two months to attract the best men to carry it through. Even more time was lost in the blizzard of paperwork necessary in order to leave behind the known world when one embarked on an exploration. These were normal events and he was accustomed to them. But his deception had caused yet more delay as he’d shaped the required ruses to dupe the Viceroy’s officials. He had made them believe that what he was doing was not actually what he intended at all.

  He now lived that lie to attain the truth.

  So he watched carefully as the ships were loaded: first with stone ballast supposedly to furnish the foundations of a colony, then with huge barrels of fresh water and salted meats to see them through the voyage and supply the burgeoning settlement, and finally the armaments required to protect them. He knew from past experience the weapons would surely be needed to fight those guardians of the secret he sought. They were fearless warriors; a threat even to the accomplished conquistadors he had brought with him on these ships.

  Then the zealot was brought aboard. For each voyage of discovery, each conquering of indigenous tribes, occurred only through the benefaction of Holy Mother Church along with her crusading minions, of which the friar was so insistent a part. Juan Ponce had tried to block his inclusion but to the powers of the Inquisition there could be no argument, no matter how distant the old world from this one. The monk’s purpose was to spiritually support the new colonists in their creation of a community and to evangelize the natives. In his mind Juan Ponce knew there would be no community and the C
alusa would never submit to the Church. They were the killer pagans he knew he would meet when they landed. They were what stood between him and his mystic goal; they and this sacrosanct zealot.

  But another, more exotic creature soon caught his attention. Following the cleric from the dock up the ship’s plank came the oddest yet most significant of this journey’s elements: a single woman. She wore the accoutrements of a servant: a loose fitting gown over kirtle and petticoat, the gown dyed black in Spanish fashion, matching the river of her hair. Her eyes were the colour of submerged stone. Those eyes could blaze up to burnt umber with anger or passion, but otherwise they remained dark and impenetrable.

  She was Calusa: an offering given him when he’d first found their land. After the battle with the Calusa, a slaughter on both sides, the natives driven off, she had mysteriously appeared. He’d thought she’d been sent as a kind of ambassador. He’d wanted to learn from her of her land but she would not tell him. Those onyx eyes remained adamant, her voice stayed silent. So he’d given her a Christian name, unable to pronounce her native one, and placed her in his household as a servant. Yet now she mounted the ship with her head raised like a noble, disdaining all those who watched her come aboard.

  After nine years of servitude she had come to him surreptitiously. Even then she had claimed to be a witch. It was she who had planted the seed of this voyage but he could not be sure, even now, if she had been telling the truth; could not be certain if her tale came from something deeper, darker, no less than retribution. But she was an animal, without a soul according to the Church, thus incapable of intricate motives. He could only trust his judgement, not knowing what the future would hold, or the extent of her part in it.

  With the loading done, cargo stored, the tide correct, the men set to cast off, he had come aboard last of all. This was his expedition. Because it was his, the others had joined for their various reasons ... greed mostly. They thought Juan Ponce de Leon a good bet: tough and experienced, a man who would lead them to treasures such as Cortez had done, or to found a new outpost as had Balboa; or become wealthy by enslaving natives in the way of Velasquez. They could not have known then how much he had changed, and he could not tell them for fear they would think him insane.

  His goal was more precious than gold or power. But he could not share it. Only the witch, who was there to guide him, only she knew. And he thought the zealot suspected something. So he slept with the witch and prayed with the zealot in the hope that one or the other would bring him success.

  That voyage accompanying Columbus had brought us to a New World, a magical place of jewelled lagoons, of warm beaches and emerald mountains which rose so suddenly from the sea. And the Genoese became a seagod: Viceroy of those new Indies; a pale Neptune to the naked brown bodies which gathered about him in welcoming swells as his booted foot found first purchase on sand.

  One cannot know what occurs to a man when he has discovered the crown of his dreams. But if God’s light ever shone in a human face it did on that day in the smile of Columbus. His vision is mine now, the sea my road too. I search for a virgin water so sweet it will bring me youth again. Would old Columbus have believed this?

  I hardly believe it myself.

  They had come prepared. He had seen to that. This was his second voyage to la Florida. The first had been much different from this: into the void of the undiscovered, a search west with no thought beyond finding currents, wind patterns and new territory. He’d had no idea then of the land he would come upon and claim; no dream beyond mapping. A practical exploration back then; not like this one at all.

  His ships were stout Galician caravels: sturdy, dependable vessels built to roll with the ocean yet cross the sudden shoals of a reef. They were sixty tuns, square-masted, with lateen rigged mizzens which could sail them within ten points of the wind. Juan Ponce de Leon was proud of them. It is best, he thought, to have practical ships when embarked on a voyage of dreams. But now they were becalmed three days out from Hispaniola. There was nothing anyone could do. The ships’ passengers were left to private device. They came up on deck for the air and the sun. Each engaged in their own interests while their captain-general sat below in his cramped cabin, staining his hands with indigo ink, adrift on a sapphire sea.

  A knock on his door disturbed him.

  “Enter,” he murmured half to himself.

  The door swung open. On the threshold stood Alonzo Sotil, ship’s pilot and navigator. He was a young man but had been taught his trade by the master, Anton de Alaminos, and was truly skilled. He wore a short, close fitting doublet and hose with slashed breeches, affecting the latest fashion even aboard ship. Juan Ponce was often amused by his youthful foibles but just now the interruption rankled.

  “Well?” he muttered.

  “Captain-general, the second watch has been ordered to stand to,” Sotil replied.

  “That is why you disturbed me?” Juan Ponce returned in rougher tones.

  “Sir, we are drifting. There is no wind and we are still moving north-east in some current.”

  “That is to be expected. You studied the ship’s log from my last voyage, did you not?”

  “I did, sir, but you indicated that particular current ran just off the coast of Florida. My calculations put us far from there.”

  “Perhaps the current has shifted, perhaps it is another current.”

  “Whether or not that is so, the fact remains we are off our course.”

  “You expected to reach Florida so easily? Sotil, these are mostly uncharted waters. Be patient!” Juan Ponce replied harshly. He had waited a long time for this; no man wanted more to reach landfall than he and time ticked inexorably on; but he had schooled himself to waiting. The pilot had yet to learn that skill.

  “It is my duty to report my concerns,” Sotil said stiffly. “I can see you are busy. I’ll be on the aft castle if you require me.”

  “One moment, pilot,” Juan Ponce softened his voice to halt Sotil’s exit. He was too old a sea hand to let the matter drop. Sotil would depart and then fume to himself at his post. Juan Ponce did not want his pilot frustrated. He placed a hand on the younger man’s shoulder. “You have done your duty, and I appreciate it. This calm has had its effect on me, too. But I have been through this before, with Columbus. It lasted for days. It seemed as though it would never end.”

  “You were with Admiral Colon?” Sotil murmured in wonderment. “I never knew.”

  “On his second voyage out,” Juan Ponce replied. “He never liked the Spanish form of his name. He was Genoese by birth.”

  “But his son, the Viceroy, he uses that name ...”

  “The son is not the father,” Juan Ponce retorted bitterly.

  Sotil was not a stupid man. He heard the antipathy in his captain-general’s voice. He knew some of the history behind that hatred. It would not be healthy to prick such a delicate matter.

  “I fear heavy weather, sir.”

  “Then we must meet it,” the older man replied. “What choice have we? Whatever the weather you will deal with it but now I have other matters to attend. The colony must be planned for the day when you bring us to our destination.”

  The praise had mollified the young man’s pique. He departed smiling and thoughtful. His captain-general was a gruff, sometimes difficult leader but he was Juan Ponce de Leon, one of the last of the conquistadors. He had once been powerful. He would be again when they birthed this new colony. And Alonzo Sotil would be there from the beginning, to become rich and important. He was impatient for it.

  But the older man was lost in contemplation. Already he had returned to his desk and retrieved the quill from the ink pot. For a moment he stared just above the desk at his family coat-of-arms, the shield of Leon. It stood for something: his history. Not just his own life but those of his ancestors and his progeny, too. It set pen to parchment again.

  Those early years I recall so clearly: the winding streets of San Servas, the hot, light azure of the sky and the brown-shouldered
mountains surrounding my home are the clearest of my memories. Home was always a place of flowers. They bloomed on vines and in window boxes. Their brilliant hues lit the household in rainbows. For my mother possessed a love of flowers surpassed only by that for her children. She treated both with such gentle nurture that, if the flowers were pretty my sisters outdid them, and my brothers and I grew like strong mountain pines. She was the gardener of us all.

  And over us all, like the weather in his distant moods, ruled my father. I have no doubt he loved his family though he was a man more to learn from than love. I have absorbed his lessons, I think, too well. My son, too, is as distant from me as was I from my father.

  Perhaps it was he who actually began this. I can recall that exact moment when my childhood ended. It was a warm morning. I was ten years old. I played with some village lads after prayers and we were joined by an older boy. He was the smithy’s son, big, like his father. There was an argument over coloured stones, a game we played then, and I decided to prove the lout wrong. We fought my first battle and I, the novice, was beaten. In tears I ran home to my mother. Usually she would dry my tears and comfort me with willing arms. But on this day news of the fight had somehow reached my father. He took me from my mother and led me to his chamber. He sat me before him on a stool. I still remember his words.

  “It is time to understand just who you are.” His voice was like ice. “It seems I have left you too long with your mother. You cling to your tears like a woman. You are Juan Hernando Ponce de Leon, son to the Lord of Villagarcia, nephew to Rodrigo the Marquis of Cadiz. You are a noble of ancient lineage. Certain behaviour is expected of us. Do you understand what I am telling you?”

  I nodded, my trepidation stopping my tears.